Who Am I?

As he was walking to the bookstore he stopped to sit in the empty chair along the hallway and He thought to himself: 

I don't feel comfy or outspoken among my seniors, I don't feel ok with my age mates (I have superiority complex), with those younger than me I feel I don't have to associate with them because they are nosy.

Who am I?

I try so much to fit in when I'm meant to stand out" at least that's what the motivational speakers tell us, but how easy is it to stand out?

I look at those who said they stood out and made it. That's not true, they are forgetting one thing "they never did" they never did stood out they had all the attention and help they needed.

I have come to realize why those young teenagers commit suicide, we tell them to stand out and we leave them alone. They think, they wish, they talk but no one listened, they walked alone, they have people they talk to but no one to call their friends.

You want me to stand out but you stay away from me, you call me names when I walk by, you don't want to be my friend, bf/gf, you don't want to hold my hand, somehow you are ashamed of me and you want me to stand out, be whom you want to be and make a difference?

WHO AM I?